feel my soul meaning in Chinese

失去就不能活下去的东西

To think o the miles i ve vamped o starlight nights these last thirty years , courting , or trading , or for doctor , or for nurse , and yet never had the least notion o that till now , or feeled my soul rise so much as an inch above my shirt - collar
想想吧，我这三十年来在星空中走了多少里路啊，讨老婆，做生意，请大夫，找护士，一直到现在，一点儿也没有注意到灵魂出窍，也没有感觉到我的灵魂曾经离开过我的衣领半寸。 ”